Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Welcoming 2009

New Year 2008 is finally coming to an end-
A wonderful year with so many new things taking place
2007 was an amazing year but;
O V E R A L L -this has to be the best year ever hands down.

I was blessed with my precious angel; who is MY PRIDE && JOY (:
I got married to my best friend of 5 years, and
I’ve officially gained a new family and look forward to growing and learning along with both families.

This year I’ve learned my family is even stronger then I thought when faced with adversity. My mother is my rock and she holds it down for her children regardless of what they do. Although sometimes I wonder how that is possible; to love unconditionally and continue to fight for someone…hoping they make it in life, now as a mother I understand. With your own life experiences you grow and learn, gaining so much more then from hearing word of mouth in some cases. Sometimes the greatest lessons are taught by life and the decisions we take. As parents all we can do is try and guide our children in the best way we can; instill the very best we can in hopes they will take all that and grow up to be the amazing people we know they can be. I truly love my mother…

she has her imperfections; but she is perfect to me. :)

This New Year 2009 will continue to be a great year I know it. My daughter will turn a year old this coming April and I can’t wait for all the new things she will learn. Every smile and every giggle are what keep me going. Teaching her to say Dada and Mama, and to teach her how to wave goodbye…man, that was such a proud moment for me and her. As they say “There is no hand book on raising a child”. To be honest….I am so glad there isn’t one, because this hands on experience is the best! As she masters a new task, no matter how big or small to me it is phenomenal. My husband and I have learned a lot about ourselves and I can’t imagine a better father for this beautiful little girl. 1 + 1 = Love ; but 2 + 1 = a greater Love that’s thrice as nice than any duo.

New Years Resolutions; I want to continue to grow and be a better person, control my anger, Be more patient- as my great friend once told me ”Patience is something that takes time to grow...the Bible considers it to be part of the Fruit of the Spirit...and every fruit has to be cultivated. So get going little gardener.”
I want to gain some weight, get back into my art, get back to writing, get back to nurturing myself as well as others… && I’m still thinking about the rest Lol.

Hope you had a blessed year 2008 and if not; hey there is always Next year. Love your family and Love yourself, all of that comes first before trying to make wealth. Never lose who you are or your self respect; cause when its all said and done- take away the material things and that’s all you got left. -me.
God Bless.


Tuesday, December 23, 2008

"Gummy Smile"- Written by: L. Vasquez

I’d give you the moon and the stars
So you could hold them in your palm
Because compared to you they are very small
You outshine the sun with your
gummy smile
Your laughter resounds in my mind like a sweet melody
There is no telling me otherwise- you are my
You are the essence of what feels good
My heart flutters when your big eyes glimmer
You make me so proud
You are the fruit of my womb, innocence so pure

I catch myself smiling so hard when I talk about you
You make me laugh so hard sometimes I can hardly breathe from your crazy antics
You’re mamas everything and from your birth I knew;
my greatest gift this year, would be you.

8months old and I can’t believe it, my little girl is growing up so fast…

Dear Santa,
All I want for Christmas is my baby’s first tooth. Lol.

Monday, December 22, 2008


Funny how you say you wanna come correct
But to say that outloud is such bull, you really must think you can still play me like a fool
See I was stuck in the drama for over 5 years, and through it all tears outweighed the happy times
Some how you kept me right there, feeding me line after line…
Time after time you kept me coming back; with a simple I love you- I was drawn right back
You still don’t know all the hurt you caused me- do ya!?
Guess what lil homie I don’t need you anymore
I don’t miss a damn thing bout ya, so keep it moving on to the next one
Claimed to be this and that but all was empty words
You don’t evoke the slightest desire in me, lets make that very clear
You are nothing to me- just like 07 sneakers- you’re so last year
But na its been way more then that…huh
Keep all your silly birds cause Im sure nothings changed
Icy wrists and blinged out chains
Louie V attire, Gucci wear galore
Fendi, Dolce and Gabana and many many more
You can keep your money long, cause that seems that’s all you’ve got going on
Keep them trips to Venice, mardid and to bahia
They all sound great but what does that all get you
Fake ass friends who are more concerned with your dividends
So excuse me if I put things in perspective
At one point I wished I had never meet you
But I realize now that you taught me a tough lesson
I was never about your money, nothing about me was ever phony
I was down with you way before I even knew about all that
I stuck it through the bullshit, the lies and the deceit
But you can’t let someone who claims to love you cause so much hurt
You say you play for keeps but you play to win at any cost
Many times you fooled me, but I was just a silly girl in love
In love with the happy ending, happily ever after that would never come
I went through a lot that year without you and I am so glad I did
Cause when you tried to come back, I had finally ripped you from within
It gave way to a new man in my life who would take away the strife
He would erase you from my memories and bring happiness into my life
Im so glad that you took time to “do you”, so in time I could open my eyes and see the real you
How conceited can you be to think someone would still be trying to run after you
Been almost two years and me and my HUSBAND are still going strong.
I don’t mean to burst your bubble or to come at you sideways but that seems to be the only way
Grow the fuck up already and get your mind right let go of them “old days”
Those days are long gone now, so let them be
Don’t give yourself that much credit cause im still me without you n*gga
I don’t need you at all, if you think I’m still in love with ya, why do you think I would call?
If You claim I'm stuck on you and won’t do any better…if it was really like that…wouldn’t I do at least that?
Why you feel the need to email me after so long…
Heh- you must think its supposed to make me sad to hear about you boastin’
I’m richer then you’ll ever be and I don’t need 7 or 8 figures.
I doubt you'll ever learn that, but I have no hard feelings cause you're the past black.
Reality check dawg- you’re old news
Don’t get it confused.
Time moves forward, lets keep it like that...instead of trying to bring it back.


Friday, December 12, 2008

"Single Mothers Cry"- Written by: L. Vasquez

Good Morning-
Eyes swollen from crying herself to sleep
She knows not what to do; she feels all she can do is weep
Heavy hearted she lays in bed trying to make sense of her life
How did things get to be this way?
Lonely and cold she misses his warmth next to her
Thinking back to how things were and she can’t figure out what went wrong
Why did he leave me? What did I do?
Why do I hate you and feel so lost without you too?
Her little boy looks at his mother with a confused face
He doesn’t understand why she’s crying, but he knows that she’s hurt
He places his little hand on her face and traces his finger along her eye lashes as he giggles and smirks
An innocent laughter and smile…her precious baby
A tear drop streams from her face and he takes his hand away
He gets frightened and begins to cry
Why did you leave us all alone the way you did? Was she worth it?
Do you think about your son when you’re away…
Trying to move on but there is something anchoring me to you
A feeling I wish I could shake and be done with
A chapter I hope to close in this book in order to begin a fresh page
Thoughts just pour into her mind and she becomes overwhelmed again
She lays her son next to her and holds him close as he lays on her chest
Running her fingers through his hair as he falls into a sweet slumber
The phone rings* could it be him?
“Sorry, I dialed the wrong number.”
-Not about me, more so about the how women feel in the general sense
when n*ggas up and leave. Inspired by people in my life...If you feel me- cool and if not then its not your cup a tea.
God bless all my beautiful and strong mothers out there. ♥

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Newly-Wed :)

Finally c.o.m.p.l.e.t.e. ♥

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Keep it Moving...

I take a look around and take a minute to really take it in
Here I stand with open arms waiting for my new life to begin
Retrace my steps and the long journey its been to get here
I’ve grown as a person; still working on loving every aspect of myself
A piece of work in progress and there is no deterring its outcome
Funny how my new life has left many behind
Many who at one point I thought I’d never lose
I’ve left friends on stages that I now outgrew
I’ve moved on to a new plateau and I’m okay without you
I outgrew the partying, the endless nights, the list goes on and on
But I outgrew you and you…and you too
I see you caught up in the games and I’ve moved on…
Moved on to dirty diapers and baby food, strollers and pacifiers
Wondering how to spell onesies, which now sounds like a foreign word
Partaking in tickle fights and out yelling the other
Little hands and little feet, who knew motherhood would be so neat!
I’ve moved on to the next phase in life- womanhood
A mother & soon to be a wife
As I stand here right now- inhale; exhale
This right here…yeah this is the life

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

I think Im gona cop my baby one.

Monday, December 1, 2008

I Do.

New Beginnings..
A year and a half in the making...
Soon to be united as ONE.